news update.

I got an offer in Carigali PETRONAS. Was excited to receive a letter from them at first, and then my mom informed me that it's in Kota Kinabalu. Then I got anxious, scared, angry, and all the negative feelings I could possibly feel. KK sounds too far away, and I hate being far away from all the people that I know, especially my family D:

For the past few days, I've been praying hard to Allah to help me find the right path. Should I or should I not accept the offer. And I think I got the answer already.

I'm going to KK.

I believe that He knows what's best for me. And I know that as long as I keep having faith with Allah, I will be save in anywhere in the world, InsyaAllah ;)

That reminds me..I watched this food channel the other day. The commentator (or eater in this case. lol) said that a Chinese porridge feast is similar to life. The plain porridge is the constant. We need to have this in life no matter what or we will be starving (in life; I translate this constant to faith in God) and then, there are other side dishes in which he called them the 'colorful distraction' like nchovies, salty veges, etc. Sometimes we need them, sometimes we don't. They create different flavors and usually, if we have too much of these, it will ruin the porridge itself. In life, the colorful distractions might be translated into money, positions, and other exciting entities. We need them, yes but at times; we shouldn't be greedy or they will distract the entire course of our life.

We should always have the constant and a lil bit of colorful side dishes here and there..because then, life won't be as hard as we usually think of ;)

Cerkon Tak Bertajuk II

Sepasang mata itu merenung sesusuk tubuh yang enak dibuai mimpi dengan penuh perasaan benci.

Ternyata, kedinginan malam tidak mampu memadamkan bara di hati Adi. Dendam kesumatnya harus terbalas.

Dia nekad; darah mesti dibalas dengan darah. Kematian sahabat karibnya perlu dibela.

Adi pantas menyerang. Senjatanya ditusuk mengenai bahu kiri sang musuh. Pantas lelaki itu terjaga.

"Cis!! Bedebah!" Dia nyata berang dengan tindakan Adi yang menyerang hendap.

Pertarungan satu lawan satu pun bermula. Adi cuba menyerang buat kali kedua, tetapi berjaya ditepis. Dengan tangan kosong, lelaki itu mengelak serangan demi serangan.

Adi jadi bengang. Dikumpulnya seluruh kekuatan untuk menyerang buat kali penghabisan. Kali ini, samada dia atau lelaki itu yang akan menemui ajal.

"Mampuslahhh kau!!!!!" Adi menjerit sekuat hati.

Namun tiba-tiba, jeritannya mati di hujung tapak tangan lelaki itu.


Maka, tamatlah riwayat seekor nyamuk bernama Adi.

Ramadhan dan perpisahan.

Aku selalu gak tengok ceta 'Love in Asia' kat KBS World. Kisah orang-orang luar yang kawen ngan orang korea. Selalunya orang-orang ni miskin, takde duit nak balik selalu ke kampung halaman derang. So, bila sesekali balik; memang meriah. Part paling sedih, bila derang nak balik semula ke korea. Tinggalkan ibu bapa, adik-beradik tersayang. Derang tak tau bila boleh balik lagi jenguk orang yang tersayang. Kalau ada duit nak beli tiket flight, pastu sihat walafiat, baru boleh melawat lagi..kalau tak? Perasaan 'uncertain' tu sentiasa buat aku jadi sayu, so selalu end up menangis skali.

Metafora ni boleh diumpamakan seperti rasa kehilangan yang amat sangat bila Ramadhan sampai ke penghujung. Setahun tu masa yang cukup panjang. Entah dapat lagi 'menziarah' Ramadhan pada taun depan, entahkan tak. Wallahualam. Kalau diberi kesempatan untuk jumpa Ramadhan taun depan, harap2 dapat tambah ibadah; menikmati saat-saat indah bersama bulan mulia; kalau tak? Cuma dapat berharap Ramadhan lepas2 dapat tampung kekhilafan ibadah kita.

Berakhirnya Ramadhan selalu disalah ertikan sebagai berakhirnya 'penyeksaan' sebulan berpuasa.

Sepatutnya kita lebih rasa sayu daripada gembira..